good thing, benj understood me better. he understood me, better than i understand what i am going through right now. he was even the first one to recognize what i am going through and somehow that taught me to accept things and admit certain realizations bit by bit. and though i know i should not be feeling this way, the heck, i know i miss you... officially.

surprised, stressed and confused...

SURPRISED. engel and i came up with an idea of a surprise party for ma'am cherry. we coordinated with the waterworks gang, security office and maintenance department so that we can arrive into a successful birthday party for her.

the party went well and all those times, i could say that i was happier than ma'am cherry, or i could be more surprised than her too. i am surrounded with people now whom i came to know within just two months. such a short period of time but they sure have a very special place in my heart.

i know that i have no plans of staying here too long, but the mere thinking of leaving them could and might stop me. whatever, i dont wanna think about that right now, coz speaking of surprises, we wont know what could happen next. anyway, life is full of surprises.. :)

STRESSED. this past few days, i am having a hard time coping up with all the 'let's-meet-halfway-agreement' with brian. i know that life in westgrove could be so busy at times, but he's role in my life should not be set aside... that's why yan, i am telling you a thousand sorry... im not promising to be there for you anytime, to text you everynow and then and to be the same old cams in your life, but this one's i promise.... il try to save what could still be restored, could it be the commitment we have or the friendship that kept that holding on all these years...

CONFUSED. benj told me not to think about this. what, i am trying to. and another thing... this and that issues are making me think if is it really worth it... tsk.